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Dreams vs. Life





Hi everyone.
I wanna mention in this writing about which way is my life going and what my actual dreams are. But before this, lets go back to a few days ago.

 When i was at my family home, we visited a neighbour. And there was a girl at about my age. We were at the same faculty but she graduated a few years ago. So now she is working in a foundation as a law specialist. And i am about graduating from the university. But i am such messed myself about which position i am gonna have. So i have decided to talk this girl about her job. Then i asked, and she told me everything about her job and it makes sense for me to get that job.

But then today i sent a message to my best friend about this “my new job”. And what she said to me is, “well, i thought you have different dreams”.

Then i realised, what the hell am i doing? Haven't i have awesome dreams about my future life? If i choose this kinda life style (become a specialist or foundation lawyer) what is gonna be like the rest of my life? Then i thought deeply, dear reader. Then i made a coffee and continiued to thinking.
 Finally i got this result. Am i dreaming impossible things? Are they just unreachable goals to get?  Then my mind messed more. And finally i couldn't reach any reasonable conclusion at all.

So why am i writing this essay, if i couldnt find a solution about my future? I am writing this, because i just wanna tell you about my dreams. Yes i am a dreamer, dear reader. I dream about almost everything. And most of them are about future. Let me tell you about them a little bit.

First of all, i wanna move to abroad for a few years. I  thought over a lot and decided, i will be much more happy if i live a country where people speak English in there.
Secondly, i wanna work for an international organization. It might be as a lawyer or it might be anything else. But what i want is, work for an international company and work with people all around the world. I am not addicted to law. Yes, i love my department but i am not limiting myself about law. If there would be another department  that i can work for, i am ready to work anyway.
The other thing is, i am kinda big fan of public speaking. Am i capable to do one? No. Well, lets say “not yet”. That’s better. But my favorite thing is to listen English public speakers. I know a few public speaker and they are my role models. I am learning a great deal of things from them. So becoming a public speaker is alwasy very attractive thing for me.

And lets take a look about twenty years later to my life. A pretty cafe. One woman ,who is owner of the cafe, is sitting there. Drinking a cup of coffee and writing her novel. Yep that’s me. I wanna open a lovely cafe which based on just coffee. And i wanna write my novels in there. Sometimes, if i want, i may cook some coffee and serve them to the clients. And i wanna rest of my life would pass in that cute cafe.
I dont wanna work for a company entire of my life. I wanna work enough years for me to accumulate money and spend the money and my left life on charity and voluntary occupations. That’s what i dreamed about the future.
Well, i am sure what most of you think is, “wow what an impossible dream!” And you know what, i guess you are right. And the weird thing is, i think the same.  But also i hate what we right about. Cause i have all these dreams. But guess what will happen? I will live entirely different life. 
It is like dreams versus life, isnt it? For most people, the way of their living is entirely different from what they dreamed when they were young. And i know this is a fact that i have to admit. But it is just too hard for me to accept this fact at the begining of the road.
As a last words, one day, when i read this essay, i wanna say these words, “Oh look at the young me! I can’t believe how despereate and stupid i was. Because i just became what i dreamed.”     

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