Hi everyone.
I just want to scream and speak the whole thing
that i have been keeping in my inside, but i couldnt. So i decided to write. Of course
i will not tell you the whole thing. Cause i am really bad at telling my
problems. But at least i am gonna try. Or something like this. Anyway. Here we
go.
I have a thing that i prefer to call it "problem" but
actually it is not a real problem. So before the beginning, i wanna say that i
am okey. The problem is there is this thing that completely wrong. I shouldnt do it. In fact there is no way to occur for this situation. It is just not
appropriate. But still, for no reason, i am trying to do it. It is just something stupid. But i cant handle it.
Today we drank coffee with my friends and talked too much in
a cafe. And what i saw is there are a lot of real problems around me. So my
issue is nothing. It is really nothing. But it is just like this: when you say
a child "dont do this thing. it is very dangereous and not good for you" what
will the child do? Of course she will do the thing. My situation is the same. There
is some case. My brain dont wanna do it but my heart wanna do it. They are
always fighthing inside of me and they couldnt find a solution. And i am in this
noisy circumstances all the time. I cannot abandon it entirely. Cause the case
is actually a part of my life. So because of i am dealing with it all the time, it is
impossible to avoid it.
You didnt understand even one word, right? I think so. Cause
if i wanted to be understood, i would rather write in Turkish. But i dont want to
noone get my point. Cause it is not the other people's issues and they cant do
anything at this point.
There is no main topic or a solution in this writing. But it
is just i am about to explode and i thougt if i write my feeling on my blog, i
will sleep calmly.
Good night guys. Have an awesome weekend.
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