English Public Speaking

  I was sitting in my bed, eating some chocolate and watching one of my favorite English videos a few minutes ago. Then some thougts came to my mind immediately. When i watch the speaker in the video, i just think of "oh my god, how awesome his speech and pronunciation!"

 The speaker grew up in America, so he is a native speaker and of course his speech must be this much perfect. But this is not only opinion that came into my mind. The other thing that came to my mind and made me write this words is, "i wanna be just like him, i wanna be an english public speaker."

  Maybe some of you know, this is not a new dream of me. I am dreaming this like two years and this was something that i really want. But somehow, now i am not dreaming this anymore. And i think this is because i am not seeing myself capable for this dream and i just lost my belief. But tonight, this dream came and became active in my mind and i just thought “Why i can not be like him? Why this is impossible in my mind?”

  I guess i have this negative thoughts because i have some fear about public speaking. I am thinking, "Okey, i can speak a bit English but i am not even a Turkish public speaker. How could i become an English public speaker? I am not even a native speaker.

  But i thought a bit and i just remembered these words from somewhere that i don’t remember know.

"Then he realised something. The importing this is not to find, but being on the road."

  So now what i think is, maybe i will be a great English public speaker, maybe i will not, i don’t know. But who cares about my fears? English is my hobby and i love speak. And i am gonna just try to do it. And even i cannot reach my goals in the end, i will enjoy the process. I will enjoy the being on the road and i will satisfied whether i become an awesome public speaker or not, i will be happy what i struggled.