JUST MY IMAGINATION

2 mins read Fake it till make it, they say. I mean, what does this even mean? Yes, confidence is a significant issue. That's something one might work on for their entire life. It's not easy to gain and the process is rather painful. It teaches you a lot, whilst also taking a lot from you. And I also don't think anyone can say, ‘Okay, I got this from here until the day I die’. Because there will always be circumstances that make us feel horrible about ourselves. But that's fine, too. All of these things are part of our lives. However, what I don't get is how you can actually pretend to have something you don't have. This feels so unnatural to me.  Besides, for someone to fake something, you have to trick your brain into doing it. In other words, your brain should be convinced of something you are not. Maybe it's an art and you gotta learn at some point in your life. I don't know. Although grown-up life is not as sincere as I would imagine, I believe t...

  4 mins read Hola. So, I've been working on my Ph.D. for about a year and a half now. Feels surreal. Where were we? In month 15, I have written about how much I adore working in my office and how I have more roles this year. Well, these things are still going on, except I am switching between office and library as my workplace now. You can't really work at one place while pursuing your Ph.D., can you? Regarding my roles, I think I am fairly satisfied with them, even though I was very hesitant at the beginning. I am working on a very intriguing yet challenging project as part of my job. It took a good amount of time for me to make myself familiar with the project and adjust the work-PhD balance. I still cannot say that I have accomplished that fully. I am still questioning my life when I'm cycling back from the library at midnight. But no complaints here, whatsoever. I chose this sparkly life myself, lol. Besides, I'm working with incredible people . I always try to wo...

2 min read Yeap, I'm going to talk about mindfulness. I know, I know, this topic has already lost all its popularity years ago. Nonetheless, I believe it is something that should be included in my blog. So, what exactly is this mindfulness idea? ‘ Mindfulness is the basic human ability to be fully present, aware of where we are and what we’re doing, and not overly reactive or overwhelmed by what’s going on around us .’ * I think I've heard of mindfulness a couple of years ago. However, I had no idea what that meant. And I wasn't into meditation or anything, until recently. A few months ago, I've been introduced to this concept again, in a proper way. I've also been told that I should practice it every day. It was a genuine battle; I'm not going to lie. At first, I hated it so much. Because I can't seem to concentrate on the moment. It was incredibly difficult to stay present. Then I realized I'd never been in the present before. I'm either mourn...

2 min read Yes, you did not read incorrectly. I am actually writing about a park! Because it has a significant impact on my life. It is my happy place. My safe space. September 2020, I was in my first week in Southampton. And, although I didn't know many places, I was eager to visit somewhere- anywhere. I remember typing 'parks near me' into Google Maps. Then Riverside came up. A 15-minute walk. I could do that. As a result, I was introduced to the park for the first time. It seemed huge and confusing to me at the time, for some reason. I was walking and walking, but I couldn't help but wonder how I was going to find the way home. I remember falling in love with the river. And I also remember there were dogs everywhere. December 2020. I am coming here whenever I am upset now. So, pretty much every day, lol. Walking around the park and returning home takes only an hour. It's a perfect break for me. It feels almost therapeutic, especially after a supervisor meeting....